~ My BloG ~

In the past few weeks,
i have learned from work that words to impress are just superficial and fast fleeting and positive actions that continues with a good follow through is the only way to obtain lasting achivements and sweetness of satisfaction.

Once again, exams are coming up next week. No slacking anymore, all the way to obtain a better result than previos SEM.  There is still a very slight chances but even if it’s only 1%, i will pour in all my best to make that 1% chance come through.

The only way is to burn all ships and all out, at all cost to achieve the target set.

The boat will go triple fast next week.

ANSON be focus. Make a harvest. The sweetness of getting done well is worth the hardship and all sacrifices.

Let’s life be exciting once again.

Anson is a moody and an emotional rollercoaster. He has satirical moments; he’s cynical and can be quite a mental challenge. If you don’t like being intellectually stimulated you might as well leave him alone. He’ll never take you seriously unless you’ve challenged his to an argument - it’s what he wants in the end. If you give up the battle before it’s even started you won’t end up too far with him and he’ll forget you quicker than he can snap his fingers. You might not know why you’re doing it but for some reason you feel like you should and could play along.

Anson is not prejudiced in any way and can’t be easily impressed. He might even forget he wanted to do something really important and suddenly not care at all about it. He’s a highly independent individual but sometimes is vice versa. He’s being honest and if you’ve joined in the game you’ve entered the honors system. He’ll tell you whatever if he really trust u. If he doesn’t question you, you shouldn’t question him either.

He can do almost anything you ask him to. Just depends on how he trusts you and what relationship between you and him but he will did this for someone who not worst to because he’s gullible and weak sometimes. Btw, he’s a vengeful person (depends on who that person) so if anything or anyone have been unfair to him, he’ll create a bigger war and defeat the very thing he was heading for along with any other competition on the way. If you play nice, he can be friendly towards anyone and they won’t forget that too soon. So don try to betray him or play a fool with him.

He’ll have no trouble putting his life into order. He’ll surprise you with something that never would have crossed your mind. Sometimes he really don’t know how to express his own thought well, especially it’s an unhappy stuff. He is the one only want everyone beside him to be happy and try not to spoil people’s mood. He’s do like friends, he need someone who can make him smile, willing to give her hands when he’s in frown and remember him for being friends.

This is ANSON and he it’s me!

No doubt about it, I’ve not been myself lately. I’m trying to not heart broken or feel sad when the ones I love didn’t support me, “friends” I treated as friends just play me as a fool, act nicely when I face the ones I hate and etc. Am I have to be hypocrite like others do, do not treat everyone as friend in my own philosophy, cold and detached to who and how they treat me in their own ways? In fact, I’m so unsure as to who or what this “self” is I started feeling sorry for whoever bumps into me at random as they always see a different side of me.

I could just isolate myself from the rest of the world and journey on a trip to discovering my true self but spiritualism and self discovery just don’t cut it for me. I’m not sure I want to know who my real self is sometimes. I could identify a few of them and actually make them look like a Venn diagram. I reckon they do all have some common ground which is ‘myself’ but technically they’re so different from one another it becomes a huge blur and I just give up.

So, where is the real me?

I was thinking back to my younger days, when RM5 was a lot of money to have in my pocket but I was always quick to spend it on some candy (I’ve never been good at saving). No worries and always something to do, even when there was absolutely nothing to do. Me and my friends would jump on our bikes and just ride, or sit outside doing nothing and it was always so much fun.

Whatever happened to those days? It seems like the older you get, the less there is to do, and when there is something to do, it requires money. What happened to just having fun? Now don’t get me wrong, my friends and I do have the occasional spurts of carefree fun days when we’ll go to the park and play on the swings like we’re teens again, but it’s rare. it’s an ages ago…

I miss those days. The good old days, just to enjoy and no need to worry about money, health, studies and etc…

Dono y iz becos of having exam. getting the kick, low mood..
feels like 12sleep evday~ the sun is so bright, i feel so hot, ma bed is calling on me.
alwys got the habit of listening to musics, hard to kick habit.
STUPID spoilds ma brain. It seems like the world is abandoned me.
Fine, perhaps its not so serious.
But tht’s how i feel when more of TARC student i know have already finished their exam.
haizzzzzzzzz… poor me mugging on ma study table~

the exam mood is dying. i need a breather, i need some times to smell the roses.

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If U visited my page yesterday, u may have noticed that the value given under "Age" in the "about AnSon" section has increased by 1. That, of course, is because today is my birthday! As of today, I am 21 years of age. Twenty one seems so old. My image of a 21-year-old is an adult that’s significantly bigger, taller, n more "sophisticated" than even a 20-year-old…’ an adult’ whose description I certainly do not match. As far as both looks and personality go, I barely pass for 20, let alone 21 - or at least, this image of 21-year-olds that I have. And yes, I do realize that that probably didn’t make any sense to anyone.

On Friday (30of march), my course mate had celebrate my birthday at canteen wit  one of m course mate birthday who birthday at 31st of March as a earlier celebration of my birthday. Thanks 4 all those cannily preparation…

The day b4 my birthday (31st of march), I went out have fun with my hsemate n frens. Essentially, my dude plan 2 go IKEA shopping for furniture n have dinner there, ordinarily v should reach there by dinner time, the other way round v reach there almost supper time…haiz, cos v lose one’s way 2 IKEA. After having SUX dinner at IKEA food court v shops for furniture n took some pic as memory. In succession, v move toward 2 clubs n have fun…the atmosphere in club jus soso but v did enjoy…Some of my fren have a a tipsy feeling but some have a great capacity for liquor so they cant get high ( jus like me). Anyway, thanks for the Dj prepare a birthday song (although not 4 me) hehe…

Anyways, yesterday was a very low-key day. I sat around and surfing in front PC. While my fren furtive prepare something, I did suspect but jus pretend nothing happen as I alwy said cross the bridge when you come to it…As expected, they prepare a small party. It was nothing extravagant…jus tomyam steamboat and a cake.What so funny is this cake was the same as my course mate brought me(30 of march). But I reli appreciate their honest injun hard work. Thanks for their at pains preparation… My fren inspired my admiration and respect, yet i reli touch wat u guys did…MERSI BEAUCOUP

I offered being only in the legal adulthood  but my mom warned that being an adult sometimes will prove to be more of a curse than a blessing. I guess she would know, having been an adult for many years now…but I’m still excited for this day in 2008.

Back to the present, though I would like to thank all my friends and family for your messages (through mail, my testi and text messages) wishing me a happy birthday! And thanks to my fren for throwing me a party. As well as my mom, called my uncle come a way 2 fetch me n have a celebration with me but so soli  I din make it. My parents gave me money (I don’t want to brag, so I won’t say exactly how much…), and my fren gave me a gift and sincere wish. You all really made my day!

Lastly, I feel very touching one of my fren wish me thro MSN personal msg.. I dono wad I happy for but jus feel damn touching la… Thanks OPS (I wont publish ur name here) so jus I hope u know wad I feel k..

P.S. - Thank you to all those for your belated birthday messages! n i think this is my last blog for 2007 if nothing special happen…all da best n cheers!!!